attraction and love is a forbidden thing between you and I

-chapter twenty-one-

Christian

When my eyes open, a smile immdiatly forms on my lips and I turn on my side to pull Sophie into me, but when I feel the mattres is cold and theres noone in bed but me, my eyes open adna frown sets in, I look around but dont see anything out of the ordinary, thinking she probably already woke up and went to get coffe, I get up but stop at my own room first to put some clothes on but as soon as I walk in I stop in my tracks, all her things are gone, I walk into the closet hoping to see her clothes hanging next to mine but theres nothing, I wlak into teh bathroom and nothing again, I run down the stairs and see Melissa and Alex talking or more like arguing in the kitchen,

- Where is Sophie? - I ask, my voice is out of breath and Im so close to ripping Alex apart, Sophie left and its becouse of soemthing he said.

- What did you say to her?! huh?! - 

I yell coming up real close to Alex, he just smirks at me before saying 

- I only said the truth, maybe she finally saw it too - He seems so proud of himsefl I couldnt contro my fist even if i tried so I punched him, hard.

- You fucking.. - Alex doesnt wait and punches me back but I dont have time for this, I turn to mellisa 

- when did she leave? - I ask and she gives me sad eyes before showing me her phone, a voice messege  from Sophie from 2am, I press play and her voice breaks my heart, its raw and you cna clearly hear shes holding back her sobs

-Hey mom, I screwed up, Im flying back to New York, could you please pack up my books and ship them back? Love you - 

Then it ends and I turn to Alex once again

- Im going to kill you, - I say, I knwo Sophie leaving without a word has soemthing to ddo with what he said to her - What did you say to her! - I yell in his face once again but he just smiles

- I said the truth, I told her shes acting like a whore sleeping with a man twice her age that could be her father, I told her  you'll leave once youll get bored or someone better comes along, someone- i cut him off with a punch to his face

- You have no right to call her those names! You have no idea whats going on. - I yell, - I love her, there you have it, I love her so fucking much, Id give up eveyrhting i have for her, Id pick her over anyone, shes it for me.. - I dont get to finsih becouse Alex punches me in the face and I fall to the floor, he stands over me and kicks my stomache before spitting venom

- You have no right to love her, your a fucking pedofphile for even looking at her that way - He punches me again but I get up and glare at him, we both know Id win if he tried to fully have a figh

Without  a word I run up the stairs and into my room, I grab my pasport pull on some sweats and a hoodie and with those two things in hadn I walk out that door without a word, I get in my car and drive staright to the airport, I called Oscar on the way telling him to get the provate jet ready to leave in 20 minutes. 

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Sophie

Its dark when I get out of the cab, I take my suitcase and somehow make it to the last floor, once Im safly insid emy apartment I take out the icecream and tissues I have bough on my way, and sit down on my couch, with blanks over my lap and turn on scooby doo since its the first thing that came to mind, I have held my tears in all through out the flight so its no surprise that when the icecream hits my tounge the tears fall once again. 

Im a cry baby, and five hours later when I have used up all the tissues and ate all the icecream I still felt the need to cry and the hollow and pressure in my chest only increased the more time that went. 

I pause the episdoe of scooby doo and walk into my bathroom, I take a hot shower, where I spend at least an hour, I dont botehr with skincare, I just put on the same hoodie and some panties and thats it, im back on the couch, its 5am here but it would only be 3pm in france so im not tired. 

Honestly my tears have dried up but its like the life have been sucked out of me, like I left a part of me back in france and I wont ever get it back. 

I feel awful for leaving Christian without a note or a messge or even a goodbye but I know if I talked to him before I left hed talk me out of it, tell me everything i need to hear, that its okay and that I wont ruin his life. 

But I will, I know I will, he deserves better then this, then me.